I dont know where this is supposed to go. I just found out that my ex (lived with each other for three years, were set to be married this summer, were talking about trying to have kids next month and only broke up a month ago) is now seeing my guitar player from one of my bands. This guy has been my best friend for 10 years. He missed my first show on Saturday with my other band because he, 'Was spending time with his family' and she missed it because of some bullshit ass reason. Come to find out ... they were together that night. What the fuck? I'm having a hard enough time dealing with the fact that I'm responsible for losing the only girl that I ever truly gave a fuck about, living in a shit hole of a house, not being able to make rent - ever, trying to control my drinking .... and now this? How the fuck am I supposed to take this in stride? All I want to do is beat this guy's ass ... but at the same time I'm happy for them because at least they're happy I guess. How messed up is that? I dont know what I'm supposed to do. I'm sorry for venting and being such a whiny shit about this ... but you guys are really the only people I have.